I Want the Second Guy but…

DEAR AUNTIE ABENA,

I’m in a relationship with two guys. I did that for the sake of trust issues. I didn’t want to take one. The first guy and are have been together for almost getting a year and some months. The second guy and I too starting dating in April this year.

The problem is though I wasn’t planning for it, I’ve come to love the second guy very much

Just recently the second guy caught me cheating with the first guy and broke up with me. It nearly killed me so I had to bring in my mom before he accepted me back. Now I really want to concentrate with the second guy only because I don’t want to lose him.

My problem here is how do I tell the first guy? Please guys I need your help. Insults are welcome. Thanks